"beauty from brokenness"

life can be hard, if you just make it harder....

u can feel so stuck, there's pain and brokenness...there's a lot of things in life that is remained unsettled....but there's also blessings....blessings to realize what you have and what you can change in yourself to put the positivity into your world.

Life goes 75 miles an hour....we go through life in a rush...we swerve this way and that way and miss our street...miss the path that we're supposed to go through...we don't pay enough attention to what's happening in front of us.....we are so caught up in life....we forget to listen to the world....listen to our souls...listen to ourselves....what do we really want? what do we want for ourselves?

a hope for brokenness to go away in the mist...it hurts....

it gets deeper and deeper....u are in the tunnel...is there a way out? yes...there is light at the end of the tunnel...there is Guidance....follow your heart....enough is enough...when u have done all u can do.....don't worry it's up to you to let the universe do it's thang. trusting in the universe is all you can do, when you've done all you can do. be patient. things will fall into place.

it's okay to show your vulnerabilities...open your heart....let the lessons in.....

"The people that walked away are not tied to your destiny"

"The universe has a plan for me to go forward.
If the universe allowed this person to leave my life.

LET THEM GO.

Don't talk people into staying that want to leave.
They're still gonna go, whether it's a week, a year.
Delaying the inevitable.

When the universe is done with something, there's no amount of super glue that will hold it together.
Gift of "good-bye"
Them leaving you is the universe giving you a gift.

You want people who are supposed to be there.
You don't have to manipulate them to stay.

When the universe joins people to you.
You don't have to play up to them.

You cannot keep people like that happy.
If they're not talking about you now. They're going to talk about you later.

My time is valuable,
to try to keep people happy, that are never going to be happy.

No matter what you did, no matter how hard you try.
They're going to find some reason to complain.
Some reason to find fault.
A new problem to fix.

"They went out from us. Because they're not apart of us."
When someone leaves your life, they're no longer a part of your destiny.

Their time in your life is over.
The universe is going to bring people that are not just with you, but for you.

Be your best each day and the universe will bring you divine connections.

The universe will always bring the right people in you life, but you got to let the wrong ones, walk away.
If you don't let the wrong ones go, the right ones will never show up.

You don't need them to make up for what you're lacking.
Don't believe those lies."

-Pastor Joel Osteen

note to self: Thought a lot about people I've let go in my life....but know there was a reason for everything....it's part of life.....you either stay or let go.....im usually the one that has to let go.

....ahhhhh can't sleep! gotz energy!

FINALLY FINISHED A PAINTING!!! ....one I've been working on for MONTHS! SHIT!!!!

Refresh my Spirit....my trip to GUATZ (Guatemala)

"Today I am devoted to the healing and learning opportunities available to me in all aspects of my life."

This trip has been a much needed trip for me. I've contemplated upon my life decisions a lot. Going back and forth with decisions based on my personal values. I've thought long and hard. And know now what I'm open for in life. I know I don't want anything less than I deserve.

I realized all the relationships in the past I've let go I was at the point of no return. When you reach the point of no return in a particular situation, it means you have given all you can give, taken all you can take, learned all you can learn, taught all you can teach, been all you can be. You realize there is no hope of things getting any better, and you have done all you kno how to turn things around. When you finally reach this point, please remember this is not a bad thing. It is simply time to move on. You will know you have come to the point of no return when your joy is gone. Your peace is at risk, you are searching for some meaning, you are looking for a reason. You are no longer mad. You can't even get angry. When you come face to face with the point of no return, remember the good times, appreciate the joyful times, be grateful for any support, encouragement or contentment you experienced. Pack all of those things in a corner of your heart and take them with you as you move forward. Acknowledge and accept that you may not be able to go back to what you had but that you have something to take with you on your new journey. Previously I may have resisted the need to move beyond the point of no return. I also was looking for reasons to stay in an experience that no longer suits my needs. But today, I've chosen to move forward.

There's so many things I want to accomplish within this year and upcoming years. A lot of changes has happened, a lot of new connections has been made, and a lot of growth has taken place within me. This Guatemala trip helped me get back my center, in balance. I realized for the last couple of months I was unbalanced at times. Maybe, because I haven't spent a lot of time doing what I wanted to get done. I want to start being productive again. I am determined. I've realized in the past months that I've been unproductive in my passions. Although, I can get distracted so easily. That's something I'm working on, discipline within my course of work. I can't procrastinate on anything because in the end, it's my life. As for now, I gotta get my shit together. All I need to do is have a balance between fun and priorities.